Me.Myself.I

Monday, August 31, 2009

Why must i text him.. Y must my hand text him... y y y!!!! I reai hate this part.. heh is angry wit mi i think la cuz the way he msg like tht... hmm maybe just upset or u know.... I mean i have to do what is right of ua what i think abt him and mi also.. its not as if i onli think abt mi... i reali dont know what is in his mind.. From yesterday i was thinking should i buy this something for his birthday or not... Its liek i wan to buy and the 2nd thinking i should not buy i just dont know what to do la.. i am lost ppl... aiya i wan to skip this part of my life really hateing it man!!!! Now my post is all abt him its liek i am crazy abt him somthing like tht but i going to move on...But it will take time ...

Now i is 7.30 and i am posting as if nothing better to do.. haha W8ing for dee to get ready so can leave to sch.. Going to be late i think haha..Hmmm well yesterday nite was slpy but cannot slp sia... was rolling here and there .. and was thinking abt him also...I just cannot take him out of my head and heart cuz mean alot to mi la its like i thought he was the 1 of mi but turn out to be?? hmm maybe he is not the onli fish in e sea what but he is the golden fish i see in my lfe (what was tht for!! i knw i knw but wht to do) it reali hurt u know(kate's way) wonder how m i going to see him l8t in sch what's more is his class will be beside mine aiya.. but the way he look at me just make mi melt haha... Ok got to go if not dee will kill mi for being late.. bye2 take care...

Friday, August 28, 2009

For A Moment & Forever

For a moment, I heard your voice for the first time
As I began a new path of falling in love that night
For a moment, I shared my deepest secrets with you
As I handed you my heart, that's been broken from the start.
For a moment, I held you in my arms
As the moon eclipsed while we held each other that night
For a moment, I kissed you on the lips
As my heart burned with love, while your lips locked with mine
For a moment, I stood by your bedroom door
as I watched you fall asleep like the angels from above

The next day, I hugged you as you said goodbye,
knowing the goodbye would be for ever.
I never wanted to let you go
This was a perfect love, to last for ever
My heart started to bleed as you left my side
knowing a perfect match was about to part
Now I am heart broken again, not for a moment, But forever
Now I gave up on finding someone else, not for a moment, But forever
I am now sad and hurt for loosing you, not for a moment, But forever
I would have loved you, not for a moment, But forever
We had to say goodbye that day, no for a moment, But forever

What is wrong wit mi... I just wan to be happy.. But wen i am happy i will think abt him and all my mood will be gone.. its like i am not myself this few days i become like i dont know how to say la its just i change alot such in a way tat i am toking alot is it cuz i dont wan to miss him so much tat's what i doing this??? everyplace i go i only think abt him.. its not i wan to think its just comes to my mind... i may laughing outside but deep inside its like i issing him badly=(but i face to face it he maynot my MR RIGHT but not also my MR WRONG also what... There is no room for regret in my heart butbut room for hurt have la i mean i not regreting what, tat's e main point there.... just feel liek just letting all out tht's y posting this... hmm well let mi stp ok...

Learning About Love & Hurt

What I’ve learned about forgiving, I’ll share it with you.
These are the things that happened
That made the feeling of Love & Hurt become true.
I’ve had the fortune of feeling Love & Hurt as well as pain.
It starts with the hurt that was inflicted in me one day.
I’ve learned that you can love forever,
But it does not mean they will too.
Love was something I truly thought I found
Till the day I was told,
“I’ve made a mistake by being with you”
No matter what you do.
You can’t win a heart, even if your love is true.
Crying and saying, “I want to die”,
Will not bring the person back, stop living a lie.

I’ve learned, it’s not how good you treat someone
To be loved each day.
Even if you do what ever you have to,
It’s not good enough to win a heart my friend.
Blame comes in, and you feel hurt.
But know that we are not perfect,
One day after loosing someone, the pain goes away.

One day while you are over it, you will hear a knock
And when you open your door, your tears won’t stop.
A past before you, bringing a feeling of Love & Hurt.
Simple words like “I missed you” will come to play.
Don’t be fooled, by what you hear.
Don’t think that it’s over, there’s much to fear.

If she left in the past, as you saw her walk away.
This day can be repeated over and over again.
Best to take the hits from the past.
Then to give things a chance
Because it will only happen again.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Hey guys!! WAs so called missing from my comp cuz wit busy wit sch work and my own work... now hmm can say free from my own work la..haha.. In this fwe days i learn alot from family friends,teachers all ... Now i know who can i go to wen i need a shoulder to cry on and thanks ppl fro being there wen i need u guys... Hmm wen i just have to say this "love reali Hurts" All guys are just liers>>> I mean i thought u were my ture lovek,i mean everything to u all tht stuff but it all turn out e other way arround;( but no point thinking it over and over it will not patch things up what!!!! U have reali hurt mi u know.... i just wan to forget all this but e fucking thing is tht i dont know how??? Aiya just dont know what to do.... ANd its my fault for not listening to my Heart N Soul(u know u rit gal haha) i reali should have listen to u but it have already happen to point crying over it...